BAH HUMFUCK!!! (Or Is It Bum Fuck?)

you dont have to read this. i just wanted to vent.

so. christmas. how was yours? i think id rather just forget it. it was supposed to be simple enough. my mother didnt feel like hosting or traveling anywhere. just supposed to be me, my parents, my sister, and her new boyfriend. or rather i should say her boyfriend of two years who we have never met. see thats how you do it. thats what i planed on doing. and then the bitch screwed it up for me. have i ever mentioned my sister? no? probably because shes an evil sadistic bitch. (can you tell we dont get along? my childhood was essentially all out psychological warfare with the bitch.) so say technically speaking i didnt actually come out to her. she wasnt high on my list of people to tell. and say after the mass coming out of fucksgiving she found out through the grapevine (i assumed my parents had told her awhile ago on one of the rare occasions they talk but apparently not) and say she was a bit peaved i didnt tell her myself. so say she calls me and that fucker ab answers my phone as he is wont to do (does he think im cheating on him? would i?) and say i admit hes my boyfriend. well of course she would tell on me. why? she's evil. so now i have my mother saying i have to bring him for christmas and ab saying he wants to come. but of course ab's mother, the salt of the earth a beautiful milf of a woman would never allow her son to skip christmas!! but no! he can go! she wouldnt let him come out to play for thanksgiving but since all four of his brothers would be around this time ab was disposable. (i would just like to take a moment to say that ab's brothers are hot. like seriously fuckably hot. like i want to have an ab family orgy as soon as possible.) so its all set. its going to be the six of us. ill be surrounded by mother, father, sister, sisters boyfriend, and ab. god help me.

i guess it didnt go too bad. and by that i mean i didnt have a nervous breakdown. as i assumed my parents sorta loved ab. hes big and strong and smart and every parents dream child. he even played football with father and sisters boyfriend. but still there was a wee bit of tension in the air. it was that look my parents would give even though they said they loved him. im sure all the bottoms out there know what look. the one a parent gives to the man thats fucking their son up the ass. oh sure id like to pretend that im man enough so that for all my father knows im the top. but lets face it. if youve got say brent corrigan and leo giamani standing in front of you it aint that hard to figure out whos fucking who.

perhaps the most terrifying, mind altering, life scarring moment came when me, mother, and sister were watching the boys play with balls. my mother announced that she wondered when she knew i was gay if that instead of ending up with a woman like her id get a man like father. and i did she said. huh? what? wait. no. hes not. he. fuck. it was true. i realized. tall. athletic. jock. good looking. good family. slightly drunken youth. but still upstanding. im. fucking. my. father!!!!!!!!!! apparently my sister is too. and so the two of us sat there in silence. watching them. as we watched them they all seemed to morph into a single being. with one big jock brain. and those words ringing in my ears. you're fucking your father......you're fucking your father..... i called rm for support but he of course laughed. and laughed. fucker. rmgf says shed love to fuck my father. she needs help. i think this means i have to break up with ab. right?

we spent the night. parents in one room. me and ab in another. sister and boyfriend in another. i think if it had just been me and sister hadnt come home they would have put me and ab in different rooms but well with her and boyfriend there everyone would have had to be separated to keep it equal and you can sure as shit bet i would have forced mother and father to take separate rooms. but nothing happened. ab wanted to fuck. but. i couldnt. i sat in my old room having flashbacks to when i would jerk off late at night half aroused half scared out of my mind id be caught and persecuted. the thought of mother walking in and seeing ab fucking me like his bitch was...i couldnt. had it been any other family member i would have fucked him gladly and made a lot of noise. but. i couldnt. plus. it would have been like fucking my father....

so. notable moments. the top moment was when ab walked out of the shower soaking wet with only a towel to cover his modesty. my mother saw him. she seemed. excited? and tongue tied. which never happens to her. my mother is an ice queen. it was both disturbing and humorous. more so disturbing because i think my parents.....uhm. you know. that night. so yeah.

its over now though. but not really. the things that happened in that house will never truly be forgotten.

but the good news is the bitch and her boyfriend are gone and new years is mine fuckers!! plan is me, ab, rm, rmgf, some others and a mass orgy. or not. you know how rm is....

p.s. if you made it this far thank you. and if you think im being dramatic about all this fuck you.it was soooo much worse to live it. im a survivor okay?!